Bigger /// Smaller

Our life is composed of things getting bigger and smaller. Both Physically, and psychologically.

You're cruising down the road with the violet ribbons sunset streaking across the horizon. A car appears a half a mile down the road, and slowly creeps into your sight, getting larger by the second. The front tire blows out of that car, and they begin to swerve. Panic slaps you on the back of the neck with a cold, sweaty hand.

Within seconds, the car that was just before only a black ant on the sunset is now tearing into the front of your car with no remorse, no pity. You struggle to grasp your thumb around the 9 key on your phone before the ocean of blackout surrounds you.

When you wake up, you're in a bed. There are tubes taped to your arms and chest, and you are angry. You are angry, or what you think is angry, you can not really grasp what's going on. You jerk awake to find what used to be your dashboard wrapped around you. Your legs will not move, no matter how much you try. And you try, you try the hardest you've ever tried. Red and white lights surround your vision, and unintelligible yells are heard outside.

Why does everything seem so distant? Why do your hands not want to cooperate? Why can you see out of the left side of your face?

....

In the next proceeding days, your funeral is not unlike any other that's ever been had. There are tears, there is blame, and there is regret. You, my friend, are getting smaller now.

You will never quite go away, but you will drift down the road.But your loved ones will always see you, because the world is flat.

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It is impossible to predict what tomorrow will hold. Do not wait for it, and do not travel down a road that's already been built. If you build your own road, one that you travel alone, you're much less likely to get in a car crash.

The Path An Animal Takes

Giving a name to an animal only gives you a word to cry out when it escapes you. The animal does not know it's name.

 When you really look at it, everything you make a person out to be doesn't matter. They're going to be who they want to be no matter what. When they stray from the path you want them to follow, the harmony that you felt with them, that "name" you gave them or those things you projected onto them are going to be the only thing you have left to scream at.

And as your screams echo back to you as questions, you will know...Somewhere along the line that you have fallen down. 

To what degree to we beat ourselves up with our one good arm?

That one good arm, as the other one is left stretching out away from you trying to get a firm grasp around the animal as it runs down the street towards what it believes is more exciting.

With one arm in the past, and one in the future, where does that leave you? I believe that many people walk in the present, with the past and the future on either side of them.

With noises, and flashes and bangs and bams, and brims, and beezles coming at either side of you from these rifts you make in your imagination it's not wonder why you're all caught up in anxiety.

It's important, I think, to first realize that you cannot move forward with your eyes caught in the rear view mirror. That also means that your past must be, with complete absolution, behind you. With your future on the horizon directly ahead of you and not slowing you down to look be drawn into it every waking moment, you have no choice but you walk forward.

It's also worth noting that everyone's future, Mine and Your's and Their's and Her's, all belong in a reachable place. No dream is too extraordinary, and placing your future among the clouds is going to lead you off a cliff.

Back to that animal you had with you...

Eventually, it's going to come back. They always do.

Each case is individually unique, and I can't tell you what to do with yours as I've done with mine. What I can say, though, is that the whole "Follow your heart" thing is only half right. Emotions play a ridiculously large role in what we think and how we treat others, even those we think we're done with. Keep your head in the game though, because you've spent far too much time closing off your old rifts to open another one.